[RawFoodGrl]

Oh, I understand now.

No, for private and doctor understood reasons I cannot be very active right now. I have not been able to be active in a long while, and it will be a long while more before I can be active again.

I am also undergoing and intense and massive healing both for those private reasons, as well as for things like the detox people experience when going raw.

For rest, I do sleep many hours, but do not feel rested. In fact, when it was time to get up today I broke into tears because I'm so profoundly exhausted. I do take it easy during the day, spending much of the time resting, but I always long for night-time when I can sleep.

But sleep is not very restful. As part of the healing process I had many nightmares, and lately I'm having what I call "active" dreams. Normal dreams you're here, there, surroundings switching in an instant, in a way that makes sense within the dream but does not happen in waking life.

My dreams are very much like waking life. In a normal dream where food might instantly appear, in my dreams I get dressed, put on shoes, walk to the store, go shopping, pay for groceries, walk back home, unload the groceries, prep the food, etc.

This is not my actual dream, just an example. My dreams are deep, far-reaching, profound, and very, very active. Just as a for-instance one of my dreams last night I spent 2 hours at a gym with a personal trainer, a trainer who specializes in working with professional athletes. I have never trained so hard in my life!!! And that was just one part of dozens of dreams I had just last night.

Oh, yeah, and while I'm sleeping deeply having these dreams, I can also wake in a second. I wake many, many times during the night for the slightest sound or movement, even smells. My BF rolls over and I'm awake, the cats walk in the bedroom and their claws tapping on the floor wakes me. But then 10 seconds later I'm zonked back out, deep in yet another nightmare or active dream.

I hope that helps.