[greenbunny]

Yeah, I've known lots of people who lost weight, felt great and even were more emotionally stable just feel obligated internally to go off of live foods in order to go through some difficult emotions. Money and food are big karmic learning tools. I think we go up to the point that something big has to be brought up and then we have to do what's necessary to allow for the release.

I also have a clear memory almost 20 years ago of a friend from Puerto Rico that lived near Wigmore there saying to me that he would never do raw because everyone he met that was raw was so emotional and sensitive. Maybe it was that particular diet or place, but interesting all the same.

Before our contractor bully situation I was 100% raw and loving it, but I couldn't handle all the intense negativity when raw that I was being confronted with. I was so sensitive and it was like dealing with evil incarnate. I needed to deaden myself somewhat to what was happening to me. Granted, if I were more evolved or perhaps had more perspective or was free of such intense karma - well, yeah, then I could have handled it. But I wasn't, like many other times in the last two decades, up to it - but I keep getting back on the horse that threw me and hope that I will have a longer stretch riding this time.

When most people hear that I don't eat meat or dairy or any sweeteners or processed fat they are in awe and ask what on earth I do eat. So I try not to be too hard on myself considering. When I say I eat only raw food their eyes just glass over for the most part unable to even conceive of it. Just coming back to it again and again is in itself an accomplishment as far as I'm concerned.

My main reason for eating raw is health and spiritual evolution. If raw isn't right at a certain period it goes against my entire reason for eating that way to force it. I'd rather stay true to my purpose rather than follow some idea or rule about something. I eat raw against all the rules of the society in which I live - why on earth would I succumb to rules of the "idea" of a raw "lifestyle" or a fringe community. I am free to choose what I feel is right for me to eat at any given moment. No rules except my inner guidance. At the moment my mind, body and spirit are craving raw with tremendous might and no evil in sight, so I'm hoping for a good ride.

Well, that's my little rant.

Blessings,
Greenbunny